What’s a good space to be in that takes 61 years to get to? The space of knowing it’s up to me to be me, and that it is possible, indeed it’s natural! And knowing that all I need I have in memory, experience, and the present, and that creation ex nihilo is right now possible…
I’m writing this post in Gisborne where I never thought I’d be. Dislocated, most of my tools up north, unfinished business everywhere, a flat to set up, no one showing up yet, a grandson to frequently drop off and pick up, and some way of earning money to be developed (the plan is hobbit cabins as in www.hobbithaven.nz ) But the opening into that space has already come, as I have looked within and seen things that inspire me, and abilities that still remain – writing and thinking and painting and sculpting and building. But above all, doing Art. That is, coming from the space within and around me that is mine. Electric with possibility.
What else do I know now that helps me feel sure I can do good things? That I don’t have to unify it all – it all comes through me, and that is unity enough. I love that! So much energy and time spent agonising what to do next, and what not to do. Well,
“the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars.” (Kerouac. emphasis not intentional – it pasted like that – but good!!)
need i say more? Now I will go out and paint something. Not ‘I should’ (god knows i probably ‘should’nt’!) but I WILL. Probably a vision of the future, of the place I will rent a little space in – the old Gisborne railway station. Just today got the word there’s a room available. It’s run-down, spacious, dreaming sort of place, a waitangi settlement apparently. I had a vision of such a place before we came here – run-down, spacious, cheap, near the river, the beach, and the city centre. It didn’t take long to find. Wow. There’s magic in the air… and birds: a flock of pigeons, some white heron, ducks… the doglets love it here.
Helped today reading ‘steal like an artist’ by austin kleon. one of the quotes in it is: ‘don’t worry about unity from piece to piece – what unifies all of your work is the fact that you made it.’ see some of his work here: :))))
Now get the heck out into the world and make something great that is YOU! (please! And get let me know what you did).